+55 A Little OT: Does anyone else want to win the lottery, but have an inkling that it would just implode your life for the worse?
Never knowing if people are nice to you because you have money, when time spent/favours/trinkets was your love language anyway. Worrying that family and friends would get jealous and resentful to have money fall in to your lap, while they work. Maybe you have an inkling already that they would, and so might have you in their shoes even, if you're being honest, you're human to. After a while, you start wondering do they still love you for you, or is there a shift now that you have things you can provide them? You'll need enough to pay for your parents, and you'll want to put money aside to make sure they're comfortable in retirement - but not that they can spend it willy nilly - so maybe you're now the nit that won't just let them have their money. But really your making provisions for them for your own piece of mind. You don't work, so unless you get the fuck out of dodge you'll probably be expected to be the go to person caring and overseeing your parents in retirement, if they need a nurse, well you've got money don't you? The rest of the families busy. You'll probably want to pay for a modest house for your siblings, and hope they don't expect more. And dating? Are they dating you? Or the person who seems to never work and lives in a lovely house, while they don't worry really worry about how much they spend on a good time, and takes modest vacations twice a year or so.
I ultimately want the security of the lottery, a modest amount to amply cover bills ($1000) with $300 more or so for disposable income per week, a home or two of my own, and money chilling in the bank after investing a good sum, and my retirement fund maxed out.